Life and all its little wonders

I've been dating steve for a little over a month now. I really like him, but i'm finding out that i don't like his sarcasticness very much. i dont think thats a word but oh well. but other then that, ive been happy. i love laying next to him and waking up next to him the next morning. he really is a nice guy.

i'm very frustrated with school still. i failed my first math test with a horrible 'F'. im on my third computer science program and i have yet to turn it in on time. Last night, i just wanted to quit, not go to classes, give up. fail, cause i feel like thats what im going to end up doing anyways. i'm still having a hard time figuring out if i still belong doing this computer science stuff since ive been struggling so much with it right now. i still like it. but its just getting me very frustrated. i feel like i over think everything, which seems to give me the most problem.

as for my social life, its going well, like ive said with steve. tim is still in my life, and i finally met his girlfriend a couple weeks ago. I miss us being single and just hanging out like we did. but i really like my social life right now. i just wish that steve wouldn't have such a problem with him. i would probaly see him a little more then once every couple weeks. but oh well. im happy now. and i dont want to upset steve. ill just put things on hold until i get the trust i want steve to have in me. i've also been talking to quite a few people in my computer science classes, which is a big thing for me since i never usually do that. maybe the medication is working for the best.

ive also become very bitter against people again, whether or not i was never bitter to them or not, im not sure. with work on the weekends, im constantly battlling with Martins #10 about them doing my job when they are not supposed to. i had a worker at the store get an attitude with me when i am the person who is supposed to be doing the job, not him. but oh well. i also have been fixing everyone elses poor jobs that they are doing at the stores. whehter they are just lazy, or they dont know how to do their job, im not sure. but its annoying any way you look at it because i am not a person who just lets a poor job go by. its just very frustrating.

well, i guess thats my life update. not much more to say i dont think.

Boys, School, and Boys.

Early August, I went on a date with a man named Steve Carter. It was a nice night, and I enjoyed it a lot. He is very different from anyone who I have dated before. He doesn't listen to my kind of much, which I really miss because music is my life. He likes music, but not my kind of music. But anyways, I went to his apartment for our "second date" and it was nice. He seems like a nice guy. Some topics came up that I didn't want to surface right away on the third and forth "dates". He quickly found out about my past with someone and he really didn't like that very much. Here I thought that I ruined any chances of calling him my own.
August 29th it was a day to remember for now. I had Nine Inch Nails that night, and Steve asked me to be his girlfriend this day as well. It was a happy day.
But he still seems to have a problem with those issues of the past. I really wish he would let it go, but I'm sure it is easier said then done. It just really bothers me. I wish it didn't but I'm sure he has his reasons for it bothering him. I wish it didnt bother me either. Its been months since anything has happened between us, and I intend on keeping it that way.

School is going rough for me right now. I feel like I'm struggling, especially with computer science since i can't seem to get my program to work at all. And math, Ive failed two quizzes so far. I have a test on thursday and i hope i can catch up on it.